(one of many tests for interactions, development final.)

this evening: much has changed.

i stay up later these days.

i hope that after these two weeks coming, i will be somewhere that i can sleep in leaves or snow.

i will start to write again, someday.

darkness, goodness

image sources: 01. klousch 02. crucifere 03. air in the branches 04. 18yearstolive

daydreams

today was a long day, full of lots of dreaming about:

• 01. farming. this season always gets my mind racing in the direction of another life. i can attribute much of this to the fact that november brings the royal agricultural winter fair to my home city. this fair is one that i have grown up with; from visits with my parents as a little girl, to visits with my ninth grade drawing class to sketch animal portraits, and up to the past few years with my new-found goal of meeting/picking the brains of farmers.
  last winter, i came home with: my name in a draw for a free alpaca baby, about four zillion information pamphlets on fibre farming, information on how to join the ontario alpaca association, and one pretty great farmer friend. sadly, i did not win the alpaca baby. probably for the best, though... (for the time being!)
• 02. albumen printing. my dear friend & pen pal amanda came by today to share with us some of her work in albumen. i've recently been working with cyanotype and van dyke processes and have been more or less infatuated, but seeing amanda's work today confirmed my desire to get my hands dirty in the nasty, stinky, old egg process that is albumen printing.
  i can't seem to get enough of historical processes (as mentioned in previous post), and amanda's process-based mindset for her work keeps inspiring me to keep better notes and keep exploring the exciting historical processes world (see: this book).

they are both now added to my list of goals. or, at least, my mental list of goals.
i guess i'll also add to that, make a list of goals.

these beautiful images are created by and belong to zoe schaeffer

weather

it's raining. i'm waiting for the "weather bomb", half in excitement, even though i know that storms rarely get intense in southern ontario. i'm sitting under the skylight so i can watch the rain intensify, but it's slowing instead. i'm slightly disappointed. but, having the time to sit and wait for rain is something i haven't been able to do for a long time, so i'm going to enjoy it.


also,
i'm really in love with this photograph by noemie goudal.

good day, y'all!

today was successful. my first time printing in the cyanotype process was fantastic. i'm too shy to scan anything yet, but i feel good things about this process. i can't wait to start experimenting with plants & other strange things i can use as a negative. it excites in me feelings that i forgot existed, as i have gotten lost in the 'digital' world lately... which tends to eat up my energy, encourage frustration, and ultimately, end in dissatisfaction. maybe i am meant for something older, more tactile, and process-based.

also! i received a long-awaited package in the mail (long-awaited being an understatement): hasselblad. and let. me. tell. you. i can hardly wait to get out there and start taking pictures! my excitement is exceeding my ability to sit still and read the manual, but i must be smart about this and learn slowly and carefully.

here are a few photographs from my recent trip to brooklyn. i've been meaning to scan all my negatives but uuuuuugg it takes forever. i think i will have to reconsider getting them professionally scanned, because the dust bits and quality are maybe notsogood.

etc.

test shot for current project
more later.